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my week was fairly normal
except for the fact that my music class was canceled on wednesday & friday
meaning that i got an extra hour of sleep! yay!
on friday i had my second bio midterm
i don't think i did so well :[
recently i've been on a nature high
i've been watching Planet Earth
which is amazing by the way
& on a different spectrum i've also been watching Sci-Fi
it's corny but i like it
sometimes it's so bad that you just can't change the channel
now on to this past weekend
it had it's ups and it most definitely had its downs
friday, after classes we go to the house of blues to buy tickets for ARTTM
we get there & the lady says that it is SOLD OUT!
wtf?! i was so pissed & sad all at the same time
so as a little pick me up we when to Ghiradelli's & had some icecream
then later that night, we celebrated my friend Joe's 20th birthday
it was fun & i know the birthday boy had fun
although im sure he doesn't quite remember everything that happened. haha
then on saturday Ken invited me & amanda over to his place to have breakfast/lunch
it was an all out buffet!
he cooked spam, vienna, eggs, hash browns, and rice
twas very delicious indeed
then we all went to the beach
it has been awhile since i've been to the beach so it was a very nice change of pace
we laid out for a little bit then more of our friends came
we played volleyball for a bit then hit the water
the water was so cold but felt so good
we left the beach a bit later then i had expected
i was suppose to go to the PCN early to help out
i was 45 minutes late
but no one really noticed so i was off the hook
the PCN was good
made me cry on more than just one occassion
gabe bondoc, leejay abucayan, and passion performed for the pre-show
im in love with gabe! :]
during intermission, Ken calls Sean to bring us some apple juice
good call on ken's part
we then decided to go to the after party in Chula Vista
some of the homies pre-gamed it then we headed out around 12:30am
we blasted random music like Aqua's Barbie Girl. haha
we get the house & it's pretty nice.
we we're inside for like 10 minutes when Velinda says that she wants to go outside
i join her because i sense there was more to going outside then just getting air
once outside she starts bawling
so we sit on the sidewalk & i try to calm her down
the things she told me were extremely intense
i didn't really know how to respond
we moved our convo to the car because it was cold outside
i don't know how to help her
i wish i knew what to do
all im kinda good at is making people laugh or at making awkward;y funny situations
i want to be there for her & support her in her struggles
while in the car, she falls asleep & just when i though things were calming down Amanda calls me
she says that she has reached her limit & that she was heading towards the car
naturally, she forgets where we parked so i went out to meet her
i find her & she was completely gone
i sat her down inside the car & a few minutes later she opens the car door & expels the contents of that night
that went on for a while & then she calmed down & closed the door relaxing a bit
then my other friends came to the car & we all left around 3:00am
while driving, Charisma starts acting up as well
forcing us to pull over at some random place
Kyle really needed to pee & tried going to Walgreens & CVS
but niether of them were open
so he tried looking for a spot to pee
he walks down this shady ass street & we start getting worried
so, while still in the car, we follow the path Kyle took
we see a shady guy walk away from the street he came from
so we naturally start getting nervous
we go down the street & there is no sign of him
we decided to go back to where we were in case he went back
& as we make our way back, there he was standing in the parking lot waiting for us
he tells us that he walked past the church & peed in a corner
but he hears someone near him so he stops mid-stream
then when he felt the coast was clear, he finished
so funny
we all thought he got shanked or something
then we headed to Santana's because we were all hungry
okay... i was hungry
we get there & park the car
the two girls from earlier immediately start up again
then a cop passes by & asks us if we were okay
we replied that we were alright
then he asked if we had a DD
we said yes
& as the cop was going to drive off, Ken walks in front of his car & almost got hit
it was so funny
would have laughed harder if we weren't also scared about the possibility of getting in trouble
we go inside & i get a quesadilla (typical)
then we drive back to campus
we get back at around 4:30am
Amanda knocks out once we get back
& Velinda & i eat our food & chat for a little bit longer
i end up going to bed at 6am
i woke up at 3pm the next day
& didn't do anything productive
now it's moday, & it sucked so bad
music class was boring as heck
then i started feeling really down in the dumps because of what happened saturday night
when im not keeping my mind busy, & there is a problem, the problem tends to occupy my full attention
& i get extremely sad
i get to bio & it helped to keep my mind off my roommate situation
in public speaking we had a pop quiz
failed it
& he starts talking about the next speech
i swear we just finished the last one
gahhh so frustrating
i just feel like everything around me is crumbling as i try to keep things from toppling over
& at the same time i just don't feel like i have enough strength to do what i have to
my optimism is fading as the constant negativity begins consuming my thoughts
i truly pray for the strength to help the people i love